I am not writing this post to get any pity or to have a boo-hoo moment to myself. I just want people to understand how real this is and why I seem so agitated about it sometimes.
If you want to try to get "into my head" for a day, on an average day:
Imagine waking up, getting your baby out of bed and feeding her breakfast. Headache numero uno.
Not a debilitating type of pain, more like "Ow, hey my head hurts. That's annoying."
Breakfast for me.
Chores/Baby play time.
Baby is sleepy- nap time. Andddd headache. Brain says, "Ah, no time to pay attention to that, I need my baby to get to sleep. Ah, get over it."
Shower (Maybe? If baby has a good nap.)
Work on things on that day's to-do list.
More to-do list things.
Lunch somewhere in there.
Baby wakes up, eats, and playtime.
Headache sneaks in somewhere in there.
Meh, the afternoon is a blur, except for making dinner.
Hmm, I think my headache is gone?
... Few minutes up to a couple hours later ....Sneaky headache again. Thought to myself: "Did this headache ever go away and come back, or did I just get to a point for a while where I distracted myself from the pain? Ah, who knows."
Hubby gets home (YAY!)
Dinner
Headache either before, after, and/or during dinner.
... and maybe another headache to top it all off soon before bedtime.
Time to start all over again with the headaches tomorrow, beginning with my headache soon after I wake up.
[Side note:] This is a sneaky octopus. Sort of like how I visualize my headaches. Just kinda jumps and sucks on my head randomly throughout the day. Would you like a ninja octopus surprise attacking and stuck your head randomly during the day? Exactly. Anyway, back to the topic... (;
These headaches happen so often, and aren't really debilitating as just darn annoying and just there, I don't usually tell people when they occur. Occasionally, I would tell someone whenever a headache would pop up, but I feel like I either worry people more, annoy people more, or just plain get the "awh... that stinks" face back at me and then a few moments of that awkward feeling of being ignored a few moments later. That's why I gave up telling people (most of the time) whenever I would have a headache (unless they were feeling worse/more annoying than average and someone was waiting on me to fulfill a responsibility.) Now raises the question:
Anyone have any other suggestions as to the cause/possible solutions/alleviating tips?
Moral of my lesson: I don't want people to worry about me, or pity me, nor do I want to feel ignored.
I just want these headaches to go away already. Meh.

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